Time

seems to me everytime i feel weird about my life it's the right time to write out what's up. I love my british lit class. I learn something new everyday. Dr. Mikulics is the best teacher I've ever had. He makes me want to learn more about english writing. There's so many thing you can learn. As much as I hate reading, everything is interesting. When it comes to knowing about life and love it's really nice to hear things like that.

I don't know maybe on day when I get out of my sad phase, I'll wake up from this nightmare and major in English and teach it in high school. I've always wanted to be a teacher when I was growing up. Maybe that's what I'll be. But as of right now I seriously don't know what I want in life. Nothing is set in stone that's how I see it. Everyone has their way in choosing things maybe not now but they will sooner or later. I guess I choose later.

Being a senior in high school, I hear it from everyone, i go accepted here and there, I got this scholarship, I'm going to do this then this. . . yeah it get's annoying after a little while. The only reason why I think I'm really irritated is because of jealousy. Everyone has a plan but me. Most of my friends know where they're heading. I have to sit here and think and think yet I still can't find a reason to say I really know what I'm going to do. I would always think why can't I just pick something in random and if I don't like it, then I'll just change it. That's simple right? I don't want to waste my time and money for something I don't know. I'd rather be sure than no sure at all. What's the point of that really.

I tried everything that I kind off wanted to try while I was here in high school. I liked most of it and didn't. The most important thing is that I tried. I looked out for options and I made them work out for me. Why can't I do that for college? Why do I feel like time is going so fast and if I'm not moving with it I'll be left behind? Can't I just make time and that'll be it? Is it possible to just make everything your own? What will you gain from out of this life? That's all what it takes.